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A/N: So I've been on a happy/emo/depressed/hyper mode today, courtesy of Coke, Ruffles, chocolates, yogurt sticks and withdrawal symptoms, and I need something to cheer me up. Somewhat. Haha. And.. This might be the cheesiest thing that I've ever done, but like a wise turtle said, even the cheesiest things have an ounce of truth in them. Something like that. HAHA. =P

Rights. In any case, hope you enjoy this one. =)

Disclaimer: Yeah, it's mine. No, you can't have it.

    "You're such an idiot sometimes." She giggles, shaking her head in disbelief at his antics. She giggles again, knowing she isn't a giggler and the fact that he's the only one who makes her giggle like this causes her to shake her head harder.


    "I'm a wise fool, Anna. There's a difference." He raised his eyebrows suggestively, and grins at her laughter. He feels the urge to whoop and jump all at once, but he doesn't want to look stupid. He's smiling idiotically anyways, and he knows it's giving him away, but he can't help it.


    She rolls her eyes, still smiling. That's all she's been doing lately, and her cheeks hurt, but it's a happy kind of hurt, and she doesn't mind it much.


    "You been paying attention in class then?" She teases, smirking now.


    "I'm in a position of authority, Anna. I have to show some example," Shane retorts, grinning. "Besides, he's not so bad. His sarcasm's hilarious."


    "When it's not directed at you," Anna snaps, shuddering at recent recollections.


    He guffaws at the expression on her face, and she wrinkles her nose in silent reply.


    Shane snorts this time, before smiling softly at the smaller girl with the shoulder-length hair and silly grin. He can't help but smile, he knows. This just makes his smile bigger and his heart lighter.


    "If there's something on my face, you can just tell me, you know," Anna says wryly, a half-smirk on her face now.


    "Well, there's a pair of eyes, now that you've mentioned it," he answers cheekily, avoiding the expected swat on his arm. "And a nose, and I guess that's a mouth, but it's pouting too much, so I can't really tell."


    "Smartass."


    "I like you."


    She blushes, and looks away bashfully.


    "I like you too."


    And they smile again.


A/N: AAAAH. Okays. Gosh. That IS cheesy. Sighs. I'll reciprocate with an emo one next time. Just to counter-balance things. In any case, don't hesitate in telling me how bad this piece is. Tagboard's to your righ left. Hehe. =P

My bum hurts.

Hehehe. I've been sitting on the floor for, what, two hours now? The things I do to avoid cleaning my forsaken desk. Sighs. Ah well. At least I'm sitting on my poor sleeping bag. Hehehehe. =P

Anyways.

Life's been as lively as it can be, I guess. More things to do and explore, and I have yet to be attacked by the so-called mad bird of PTEK, but I've got a year and half, I guess. Maybe. Well, nothing's for sure, isn't it?

Rights. My brain's slightly scattered, so forgive me if my post doesn't make much sense at times. I just feel... Too content. I don't like feeling too content; it's like, I feel too stagnant and too bum-ish and I can't be bothered to get up and roll myself out of the bed and-

Okays, I'll stop that right there. It's not that I'm not happy; I really, really am. Well, usually, anyways. It's either I'm happy or I'm emo. Somehow those two odd sides of me decided to gang up and catch me unawares and I'm swinging sideways, sideways and the vine looks as rough as it did on Tarzan, but it's a happy kind of hurt and I don't mind, not really.

I'm happy because... I've got a semi-permanent idiotic smile that makes me look like a loon but I don't really care, because it makes me really happy. And it's so new and I'm terrified for the first time but I'm persevering. You can tell I've been listening to Terrified by Katherine McPhee a bit =P; go listen to her! She sounds awesome. =D

And I'm emo because.. Well, when am I NOT emo, really? Not that that's all there is to me, but it's my most infamous state of mind, and the most helpful too, at times. Hahaha. =P Helps me churn good stories when I need and want to.

But yeah. Last week was the Adau Gayoh festival thingy at some warehouse place in Tutong and.. I guess it was good. Knowing I had some pretty old relatives. I wonder if I'm related to that over one hundred years old grandma? HAHA! =P It was friggin' hot, though. Gosh. And I was in a baju kurung as well. Heh. Poor baju kurung got ruined in the mud, though. ='( HAHAHA. =P

I missed out on the beach too! Sighs. =( Wish I could've gone. Though I'm glad I didn't get a sunburn like nearly everyone else though. HAHA! =P Owh well. Next time, if there is one. =)

Besides that.. School's been school. Well, PTEK's been PTEK. Hahaha. It's.. Definitely different from MS. And I've definitely changed, a little bit, or a lot, depending on how you see me. But I've still got the bits of Sherly from MS. The don't-mess-with-me-unless-you-want-your-ass-or-knees-kicked, for one. The bookworm bit, which, let's face it, will NEVER be erased. Hehehe. =P And the fact that I roll my sleeves higher than my elbows. Hahaha! Owh, and that I STILL study last minute. Sighs. That can't be changed, I guess. Hehehe.

But there are some bits, that have changed. I sorta expected that, but I haven't really figured out which parts. Maybe I show my emotions more? Maybe it's harder for me to keep up a mask when I need to, want to? Maybe, maybe I just-

Owh, and there's something that hasn't really changed about me too.

I constantly whine about my hunger. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Poor PTEK-ians. HAHAHA.

I guess I've exhausted whatever randomness I have for this post. Hehehe. 'Til next time then. ;)

And to feel-

A/N: Just something I jotted down in Math yesterday. =) It's been a LONG while since I've gotten anything emo done, and yesterday morning was.. I dunno. Maybe you'll get it, maybe you won't. Hahaha. But, why not, while I'm at it?

Disclaimer: Mine, greedy vultures. All mine.

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    She read the text message again, eyes slower this time, ears listening, heart speeding.


    She wanted to ask why, why this had to happen. But she didn't, of course. She was one who accepted easily under nearly every circumstance. Why should this be any different?


    But it was. She flipped her phone shut and stuffed it in her pocket, fingers fidgeting, teeth gnawing her bottom lip. Anxiety pummeled her that moment, and she had never hated it as much as she did then. She was a fighter, a survivor, but she was in unchartered territory. She didn't recognise this place.


    Faith. Faith was holding her up, leading her by the hand but she wanted to take off the blindfold, wanted to know where faith was leading her now. She needed faith, but she wasn't sure if faith needed her, and she was frightened, so terrified.


    But she held on. Because she believed. Because she was a believer. Because, otherwise, she'd have nothing, nothing to clutch, to grasp, to hang on for dear life right now. She glanced at the text message again, taking it in, taking it all in. The words, his voice, his worry and rage; it was hers, whether he wanted it to be or not.


    She smiled when she saw him, a couple of minutes, hours, days later, but he didn't see it, didn't see the smile and she turned away, laughing hollowly with someone else. To ask or to stay back; she wrestled, wrestled violently and received scars and bruises instead. She smiled, more timidly this time, and he returned it, and somehow it just made her heart break that tiny bit more.


    But she was a fighter, a survivor. She was also lost, scared and worried. But at least, at least she was there.


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A/N: End. Hope you liked it. Criticisms, you know where my tagboard is. Hehe. =P

Just.. Bits and pieces.

                            I had fun playing and laughing and walking in the rain today. HEHE.

Yeaps, I was barefoot too. And freezing. And had prune-like toes. Hehehe. =P


But in any case. I... Don't really have much to update about. Life's been good, I guess and I'm grateful for that. =) More homework, but it's Form 6 life, so it's expected, I guess. And the crapping through essays go through another cycle again; only, for two extra subjects this time. Mehehehe. =P And.. I'm coping in Math. Surprisingly. Hahaha. =P

I get really sleepy nowadays, though. Like, I literally nearly fell asleep during Sociology this morning and only my teacher's message jolted me awake =.=" Thanks, Sir. HAHA. But yeah. I guess I'm just tired? Heh. Owh, speaking of tired.. May is Adao Gayoh (I THINK it's the correct spelling) month, and every Sunday since the week before last have been and will be filled with visitations, ceremonies and just plain ol' catching up with the extended family, and possible meeting new possible family members. ;)

Hehe. Besides that.. I haven't got much to say, really. =)

P.S:

As much as I'm enjoying this...

I miss this too.

And to think. =)

And no, this isn't the one-shot I was planning to do =P. I'll post that up as soon as I have the time to actually sit down and write something non-crappy, besides my EAS essays, anyways. =P

The week or two since I've actually updated about my life has been.. Interesting. Hehe. I'm nearly settled here, I guess. I don't jump at every little thing (and no, people screaming in my ears do NOT count), I don't panic so much when I'm alone, and I smile more these days. I talk a bit more, I laugh a little more. I muse some more, and I wonder sometimes as well. But at least I don't regret, not so much, anyways. I still miss you people, and our crazy bunch of crazies. Hehe. But it's all part of growing up, isn't it? Skinned hearts and knees and lingering hugs and smiles.

In any case, homework's been piling again, especially EAS commentaries =.=" Gosh. And my writing abilities tend to escalate or deteriorate according to my bloody moods, thus you'll see both As and Ds in one file. Heh. I'm worried about my Lit as well; only God knows why I'm taking all subjects for November =.=". Okay, fine, I know why. It's more convenient bla bla bla. Heh. =S Let's just hope my writing skills don't desert me by then, eh?

Math is as sleepy as usual-I'm sorry, I really don't like the subject most of the time, despite it being my highest-scoring subject thus far =.=" Embarrassing, man. Heh. Yes, I'm disappointed with my Lit marks, and yes, I wanna get AT LEAST a B for the next test. Sigh. I don't believe I'm being an over-achiever; I mean, I'm Sherly. I'm lazy and I like bumming and writing and eating and reading and sleeping. I'm quite content with B+s and A-s, and I'm very grateful if I get A+s, but really, I won't qualify being a nerd, despite coming from a 'prestigious' school and all. I mean, seriously. It's Sherly, for goodness' sake. Haha. =P

Rights. Moment of ranting over. Hahahaha. Gosh. Owh well. Apparently Sir likes saying my name a lot. Heh. I love my name too, and its special spelling, but really, six times in a day? Sigh. Okay, I'm ranting again. Haha. =P

Anyways.

Watched the Debate finals on Tuesday, and yes, I must say: PTEK butchered MS. I'm so sorry, but sigh. Wished Jane could've debated. Hehehe. Owh well. Congrats, PTEK, and well done to MS, who did their best. =) And Jarrod, who won best speaker for the grand finals. And the Musical Theater and the MS Choir did an awesome job too. Hehehe. All in all, it was a great afternoon, catching up with the MS people and all. Gosh, sometimes it's like I've never moved at all. And then there're hugs and simple "I miss you!"s and the fact that my kain's more colourful and I'm reminded again. Sigh. =/

Ooh! Gosh, I'm getting darker due to Frisbee nowadays. Heh. Reminds me of the good ol' Softball days. Hahahaha. One of these days, I'ma go back to MS and PLAY. Or, if there's a tourney or something, I might just go and play a bit after the game. Hehehe. What about it, people? I'm like, desperate to throw and bat and catch, man. =S Frisbee's fun and all, and my throwing skills still suck, but I think I'm getting the hang of it. *big grin*

Hehehe. There's more, but I won't divulge anymore. Some things are just too.. Good to share with the world. Hahaha. =P Suffice to say, you're not the only one with the idiot idiot smile. Hehehe. ;)

And there ends my post, peeps. Hehehe. Cyou around.