Monday, June 28, 2010

Back to.. Everything, really.

    It's been a week since the second term holidays ended, and it feels exactly as if a week's gone by. Maybe less, but it feels longer somehow. Maybe I've just been too busy? Haha. I think I've to get used to sleeping less than six hours per night every night now. New responsibilities, more sacrifices. Same old story. More wishes of how I could drive already. Hehehe. I mean, honestly. If it's the same old problem of transport, I hope it'll all be resolved by this time next year. =S HAHAHA. But really. Sighs.

    Anyways. Had MPP stuff last Thursday and Saturday, and it really reminded me of the days in MS, back in Form 4 and earlier this year. The rush, the chaos, the frustration, and really, sometimes I dunno why I joined all the fun again in PTEK, but. I liked it. The chaos, the rush, the frustration, everything. Okay, not EVERYTHING, but I find amusement in odd and bizarre ways. HEHE. >=) And I miss doing announcements! Haha! I like the PA system at PTEK. SO cool. =D Hehehehe. I wouldn't mind doing announcements more. Mehehehehehehe. =P  Missed a couple of classes on Saturday, but it's all good. Hahaha.

    And then there was T.U.G in the afternoon, which was.. A bit disorganised, but still good. I wished I could've play Human Foosball (sp? =S). Really looked like loads of fun. D= Hehehehehe. Never mind. Next time. >=) HAHA. And I am SO not throwing away those flags. SOO sayang. =S I spent two nights working until after midnight for them. =S HAHAHA.

    I cut my hair too. HAHAHA. SO many mixed reactions. =P Hehehe.



    We went back to Tutong yesterday, since it was my grandpa's third death anniversary or something like that. It didn't feel that long though. But somehow it seemed longer as well, as if it happened eons ago but I still can remember. I'm just upset I don't remember as much as I should, as I want to. I'm upset I practically didn't talk to him at all. That all I have to remember of him is his shuffling gait, the way he and my Dad could talk for hours on end, and how he'd smile a nearly toothless grin whenever we salam-ed his wrinkled, shaky hand. To think I could've, would've, should've, but didn't. Is it possible to miss someone you barely knew? That you never really talked to? That you wished you could've done more for?

    I guess it IS possible, because I really do miss you, Ni. 80 years. You didn't even get to see any of your grandchildren get married. You didn't even get to see every one of your kids get married, get more kids to fill the old house. Heck, you didn't even get to see the old house being renovated.

   I'm glad the family's still strong together, though. We're all far from perfect, but as corny as it sounds, we've still got each other. And I'm grateful for that; for the fact that I've still got aunties and uncles and crazy, amazing cousins and it reminds me of old times when we used to run around in the yard, chasing each other and being naive and blissfully ignorant.

    I guess I outgrew that phase; too fast, maybe. Maybe that's why I didn't spend more time with you. Maybe me being too busy chasing my dreams made me forget. Or maybe I just didn't try hard enough.

    I wonder what would happen if I did.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

This is the end...

Of sleeping at 3am and waking up at 11am for a very long time. HAHAHA. Gosh. Hallo, peeps. =D It's usually too early for me to be perky and I've got a slight headache as well but since it's the second last day of hols, I figured I should be a happy bunny. For today. Then I can moan about impending homework and tests tomorrow. Hehehehehe. =P

In any case, the holidays have been really good, actually. I got to watch two movies;


And



Which, by the way, was pretty awesome. =) Hehehe. And to think I nearly didn't get the tickets =S HAHAHAHA. Gosh. @.@ But yes. It was good, so good until my baby sister went into shock watching it. O.O HAHA. I mean, when you're used to her chattering away ALL the time, it was pretty weird seeing her practically shutting up throughout the whole night.

SPOILER ALERT!

I wished Woody had more scenes though. =/ Hahahaha. And yeah, I guess it was kinda heavy, what with the theme of moving on and all that gangster stuff. HAHAHA. =P But they were still the toys I grew up, the same humour, and gosh, Rex is just too cute! HAHAHAHA! And Slinky! And Bullseye! I realised I'm just naming animals ()=) Hehehe. But they're just too cute, y'know? And I cried watching the scene where they were holding hands just before they nearly got incinerated, and the part where Andy gave Woody away. Sighs. All in all, it was awesome.

Um, end of spoiler alert?

HAHAHA. I slept over at Jo's place last Tuesday as well, since she's about to leave and all ='( And I just realised, WE NEVER TOOK A PHOTO TOGETHER. =.=" HAHA. It's always either you or me behind the camera. Sighs. At least, I don't have a recent photo of us together. HAHAHA. We basically hung out, baked chocolate fudge brownies and scones (SO GOOD) and watched Toy Story 3 together. Hahaha. AND cried over Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs together too! T.T I'm super glad I watched it. =) And The Vampire's Assistant too. Hahaha. It was okay, I guess. Hehehehe. =P

And I know you don't read my blog, Jo, but I WILL miss you and your craziness. I really think we get it from our Dads' side, despite what mine says about my Mom's side. =.=" HAHA. I mean, have you seen our uncles and aunties when they get hyper?! HAHAHA. Gosh. Chaos. @.@ I'm grateful we didn't stray apart when we got older =). We had loads of hectic, mad times when we were kids, didn't we? Playing in the bouncers, taunting our uncle's pet monkey, running around in our late grandpa's yard, fighting bullies.. ;) I've got a crate of memories of us just talking and sleeping over each other's houses as it is. And now you're off and chasing your dreams of fashion design. =) We've always been near opposites, but I guess that's what made us close. All the best in Singapore, cousin. =)

Rights. Mushy and cheesy time over. Hahahaha. Besides all the fun, there was the usual KOOL, YDM and a couple of meetings, making the holidays quite productive, even if it wasn't in terms of schoolwork. ()=) HAHA. =P AND I got to relieve some of my withdrawal symptoms ;) Even if it was for a really short few hours. =) Thanks. =)

Hehehe. I finished my Socio homework! =D HAHAHA. BUT I've still got my file to sort out and Math as well. T.T Sighs. Sweet procrastination. =P Owh well. Thank God Sunday is free. I think. I hope. =S

In any case, I should shower and eat. Like, now. HAHAHA.

Cyou, peeps.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

So far.

    I am grateful for the holidays. Really, I am. I needed a break, a good long one. Catch up on some reading, some writing. Hang out with people, not waking up at 5am in the morning anymore.

    And in the process of couch potato-ing myself, I've become severely disorganised. Like, seriously. I've always been slightly harebrained, but this? This is atrocious. Extremely. Completely unacceptable. And can you see how I'm having fun bolding a couple of letters and making them a size bigger than the rest? =D

    HAHAHAHA. In any case, I've missed using my dear ol' planner/diary/memo-like book thingy.



    My trusty ol' free BIBD book.

    HAHAHAHAHAHA. =P

    But yeah. I sort of miss writing, as in, writing using an actual pen and not merely jotting down ideas and snippets of random stuff. And I miss putting down lists of 'What-to-do' everyday. A tad obsessive, but as I've said, I'm harebrained by nature (I blame this on my Dad =P) and I'd be completely lost without some sort of guide or something. =S

    Anyways. I think I've lost the whole point of my post, so forgive me. Hehe. Owh right. Holidays. HAHA. Gosh. Prime example of why I SHOULD be keeping that book up there close to me at all times. @.@ Gosh. But in any case, holidays have been good to me. I mean, nothing's perfect, and it could be slightly better, but I don't feel like complaining so much now. Hahaha.

    One more week, and it's back to that institution! I'm glad I moved. =) But you know that doesn't mean I don't miss getting high with you people. =P Hehehehe. I'm not looking forward to lessons, though. Sighs. AS exams are coming up sooner than ever (YES, it's coming up soon, and I'm hyperventilating as I type, which isn't possible, but then again, it IS me, so pretty much anything's possible =P) and I HAVE to revise. Soon. =S Meh.

    I don't like revising. Mehehe.

    I should really be getting back to my Socio. O=) HAHA! Two. More. Questions. =S And then Socio filing. Hopefully. And then. YDM. =D=D

    I'm getting randomer, so I should stop. Like. Now. Hehehe.

    Bye bye, peeps.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

A different perspective.

A/N: This isn't totally accurate; it might actually be the furthest thing from the truth. Regardless, enjoy anyways. ;)

Disclaimer: Mine, suckers.

__________|


Calm down. Deep breaths.
This was his mantra, his foremost thoughts as he walked around the bright, familiar building, waiting patiently. He wondered how long would it be until his patience dwindled though; it was slightly past the allocated time and she hadn’t-
Text message.
He raised his eyebrow at the not-too-clear message, and replied, before everything dawned on him and he realized that-
Her next text confirmed everything, and he tore himself away from whatever he was looking at, gathering whatever remaining wits he had, as he strolled, trying not to look nervous, to remind himself it was just her and some strangers and there was really nothing to it, but the fact that she was there seemed to change everything anyway.
He looked up and saw her, as well as a familiar face and a couple of non-familiar ones. He wasn’t surprised to see she was the smallest one there, and chuckled silently at the thought. He wondered briefly what she’d tell the others if they started asking questions, before seeing that smile and he smiled back, still on edge but at least, at least she was here. With him.
The introductions were slightly awkward, and she seemed apprehensive, and he knew everything was new to her, but she grinned anyways and soon he was nodding and smiling at the people she had grown up with, the people she had left behind in favour of paving her own path. They seemed nice enough, he decided. Different, definitely. There were a few girls that were friendly enough to make small talk and his apprehension eased as well. Somewhat.
He felt out of place with the amount of estrogen surrounding him though, and he stayed back, at the back of the giggling, chattering crowd. She stayed with him too, joking a little, smiling a lot, and he was glad he could see that smile today. She was beginning to be less reserved as well, more open, more, well, herself, he guessed, and he was thankful for that too. He didn’t like it when she hid things from it, didn’t want her to doubt him anymore.
The awkwardness level rose though when they sat for lunch and he shook his head, wishing she brought a few guy friends along as well, because, it was, literally, a 10 to 1 situation and never had he felt more outnumbered.
“I’m hungry.” He chuckled at her predictability and relished in the chance to tease her again and again, and he laughed at her pout and eye-rolling, eating off her food anyway and grimacing at the taste, before taking another bite.
He saw how close and how unique her friendship was with that one particular girl though, and he smiled inside, glad to know that someone was keeping an eye out for her as well. The dark-skinned girl seemed a bit odd though, but then again, the petite figure beside him wasn’t like many people he’d met too. Maybe that was why they complimented each other so well.
As they got up and walked towards the other end of the floor, he wondered, not for the first time, whether this place was really all there was to this country. He’d lost count of the many familiar faces he’d encountered, as well as the polite waves and greetings he gave and received during the hour and a half he’d spent there.
Suddenly, more familiar faces swarmed around them and he raised an eyebrow, before wondering if they’d pick up what he was doing here with her. He wasn’t exactly the closest person with her around them, after all. But he screwed logic and smiled anyway, letting the curiosity on their faces play for a little while longer.
“The movie’s about to start; why don’t both of you go first? I’ll wait for the rest.”
He nodded his okay and chuckled at her admitted cluelessness, before leading both of them inside the dark hall, pleased to find that they had gotten the good seats at the back. The screen flashed pictures after pictures in succession and soon her friends started trailing in. He was mortified at their profound ability to be blunt as well as oblivious though, laughing helplessly at the embarrassing question posed at them and the stares they received. Not long after everyone else arrived and he settled in his seat, intent on enjoying the movie.
He watched the screen without paying much attention to anything else but her, and halfway through the show he deliberated whether-but she was sitting too still though, as if she was uncomfortable with something but still trying to hide it as she leaned back in her seat, concentrating as well.
He saw out of the corner of his eye, her talking with the people to her left, but he didn’t think much, too engrossed by the movie as well as the urge to just-
She placed her arm on the armrest, effectively slightly leaning against him. He grinned at the warmth, but still hesitated.
Gosh, this is cheesy.
Finally, somewhere towards the end, when her posture wasn’t too rigid, he laid his head on her shoulder, grinning idiotically to himself. She relaxed a moment after and his grin grew wider as she leaned back against him slightly, and they watched the remainder of the story, just like that.
They walked around with the rest afterwards, and he raised his eyebrows at exactly how weird and unfathomable her friendship with her best friend and he stepped back, just so he wouldn’t feel like a pole anymore. Which was difficult to do, when she was a whole head shorter.
 He regretted how fast the day ended though, and when he had to go, he gave her a half-smile before hugging her tightly, just slightly longer than usual, already missing her, no matter how ridiculous it sounded. She hugged him back just as hard, and he knew she wouldn’t hesitate to say the same as well.
 And he waved to the rest and left, sighing softly to himself.


|____________

A/N: I TRIED to make it not as cheesy as before. No worries, an emo one-shot will be coming up soon. ;) Hehe. In the meantime, comments, you know where my tagboard is. =P

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees.

Hahaha. Westlife's Seasons In The Sun has been playing in my head for a while now, courtesy of Dad's 70s-90s current music in his car. =P I'm not complaining though; I mean, who else goes to school rocking out Bon Jovi's It's My Life, like, nearly everyday? Or As Long As You Love Me by Westlife? OR Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park?

HAHAHA. Yeah, Dad and I share similar music taste. Hehe. =P

Anyways. Just a short update on life; mine, that is. Hahaha. =P

It's school holidays, baby! =D HAHAHA. Yeah, I need a break, like seriously. But, well, yeah, I miss school. Not exactly the studying, but like, certain aspects, you know? The people, really. Hahaha. Some more than most. ;) HAHA. Owkays, I shall stop there. =P But I'm super happy it's a longer break this time; gosh, the March holidays were hardly restful at all. Actually, they weren't. =.= HAHAHA. I so hope I won't get as sick as I did then in the near future. =|

Yesterday was a good 'last-day-of-the-term' day. Hehe. =P Classes ended up at break (for me and several others=P) and well, it was good. Hahaha. I played football! 8) Haha! With Ika and Hafidzon and his friends. Hehe. =P Haven't played for SO long, man. I think the last time I played, was, what, three years ago? Hahaha. And thing is, I'm sort of aggressive, but I'm those polite type of players-the ones that would apologise when they hit a knee or an elbow or something. And I hit several knees and I think I nearly tripped someone over too. O.O HAHAHA. Gosh. @.@

Played some Frisbee as well; tossing and catching and all that. Hehe. My tossing still sucks though. =| HAHA. =P Ah well.

I was cajoling my Dad to go watch Robin Hood since last week and yesterday I talked to him again and we watched it today! =D HAHAHA! Was supposed to go at noon but the banks took a while longer than expected (as usual) so we ended up watching it in the afternoon instead. Hehe. And now that I've watched it, I'm itching to get my hands on some more stuff about Robin Hood and King Arthur. It's been a LONG while since I dug up any of those stuff. Last I read about Arthur was, what, two years ago? Gosh. Don't even talk about Robin Hood. Hahaha. But yeah. I shall.. When I finally have time and I'm not too lazy. Hehe. =P

It's the second day of holidays now, and I'm stoked, really. Have got several plans which I'm hoping won't get screwed, and well, a toast to the best second term holidays we could have, eh? ;)